PRIVATE POST #007 ; DECEMBER 11TH, 2012
Dec. 11th, 2012 09:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bungalowSo, I was about to update my blog, and it asked me if I wanted to restore an in progress post... I guess this was from last year. I guess I'll post it so it's not lost.
I really don't know how to begin. I haven't posted in almost exactly a year I believe. Lots has happened, obviously. I'm in a really open mood, and I just need to say exactly how I'm feeling. I'm just going to let my brain and heart run loose. I know Alex is here for me, but he's at school I think. I don't know though, he hasn't answered my texts. I'm going to talk to him about it all later though, I think. I just don't want to overwhelm him. He's been sad lately, and I think a major part of it is my fault. Actually, I know it is. He said so.
Okay so Alex and I had this really long talk a few nights ago. That talk actually killed me. Like, slaughtered my heart. I can't tell you the intense emotions I feel because of it. This talk made me so fucking sad, I started crying in front of him. I'm not sure if he noticed, but if he did, he didn't care... At least he didn't care when it was happening. A few main topics of conversation were
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And that was the end of the post.
I plan on updating my blog soon, but for now farewell :)
I really don't know how to begin. I haven't posted in almost exactly a year I believe. Lots has happened, obviously. I'm in a really open mood, and I just need to say exactly how I'm feeling. I'm just going to let my brain and heart run loose. I know Alex is here for me, but he's at school I think. I don't know though, he hasn't answered my texts. I'm going to talk to him about it all later though, I think. I just don't want to overwhelm him. He's been sad lately, and I think a major part of it is my fault. Actually, I know it is. He said so.
Okay so Alex and I had this really long talk a few nights ago. That talk actually killed me. Like, slaughtered my heart. I can't tell you the intense emotions I feel because of it. This talk made me so fucking sad, I started crying in front of him. I'm not sure if he noticed, but if he did, he didn't care... At least he didn't care when it was happening. A few main topics of conversation were
_____
And that was the end of the post.
I plan on updating my blog soon, but for now farewell :)
